Don Davis

Hi DD members, Here is a picture of my wife Angela Bauer (aka Baby Angel) wearing a decorated diaper. Daddy Don

What an interesting question! Mary, one of my younger sisters, has been a psychiatrist since 1969 in Santa Barbara, for years the home of Rubber Duckies. Never has anyone come to her either to get treatment for diaper related affectation, or because a realitive like diapers. Of course she knew that my late first wife, Jean, had lost her bladder control, then turned to AB as a coping strategy. Angela told Mary about being incontinent and also being AB. Mary's opinion is that only if loving diapers becomes such an obsession that you cannot function as a responsible adult would it be ethical or prudent to attempt diverting a patient from diapers. Her easoning follows the guidelines of the APA. Do not replace one behavior with one that is more dangerous. Of the associated addictive/compulsive disorders, diaper affectation is the least dangerous medically or physically. Imagine the malpractice law suits if a shrink treated a diaper lover, convinced him to give up diapers, and then the man turned into an alcoholic? This has happened. In Feb 1992 Angela (disguised as "Jessica") and I were guests on Montel Williams along with another AB couple and two AB/DL men from Seattle. The psychologist on that episode was Jim Gordon, PhD, from West Hollywood. At the time Dr. Gordon was the world's leading expert on relationship between gay communities and police departments. He has treated thousands of people with addictive and OCD disorders, as well as sexual disfunction. None complained or mentioned diaper use, except as a result of their medical problems. On the show he directly told Montel and the studion audience that shrinks simply do not consider a desire for diapers a mental problem. In conversation after the show Dr. Gordon agreed with Mary that only if diapers become OCD would he consider trying treatment, and he doubted it possible to wean a person off diapers. If OCD, the best a shrink could do is provide some life-lessons to help the patient function more responsibly while in diapers. Angela and I remained good social friends with Jim Gordon for years. Late in 1992 Tommy of DPF put a St. Louis psychotherapist named M.A. Hogan, PhD, in contact with Angela. Dr, Hogan had apperared with Tommy and several AB on the Jerry Springer Show. Hogan was treating a 30yo man who did believe his diaper use and DL activities were destroying his life. Eventually Hogan discovered that patients other mental problems, such as drug and alcohol abuse, was the risk, not the diapers. In April 1993 Dr. Hogan participated in our SpringFling'93 international diaper affectation party/conference. By then she was treating another man, 50yo, who decided one day he no longer wanted to be an AB. He was not comfortable socializing with men or women at our party, yet he had traveled all the way from St. Louis to do so. A month later he quit therapy and alos dropped out of DPF and contact with Angela. Be careful when trying to give up a love of diapers.

My late wife Jean and I had 3 children when she started losing her bladder control because of early-oset menopause when she was 38. Our youngest son was under one year, our daughter was 9 and our older son was 11. Jean was a professor of childhood development and herself advocated gentle toilet training. Both of us believe in being hones, especially our kids. Using calming age-appropriate language she let them know their mommy needed diaper in the same way their baby brother did, so they should not be scared or embarrassed for her if they saw her daiper. The fact his mom was also diapered did not prevent our youngest son's toilet training, days before he was 4 and nights before he started kindergarten. When he would have an accident, Jean would asure him everyone had or would wet without control. She let all the kids handle new adult diapers when they wanted so they would not be afraid. Jean also always kept an emergency supply of diapers that would fit each of the children until they were 14 or so. The kids knew where to find them and they was promised they were welcome to take them without question. Jean was 42 when a friend said some other adults like wearing diapers. She tried having a little fun. Everything about relaxing as a big baby girl Jean and I tried to keep confidential from the kids. They did not ask and we did not tell. Month by month Jean went from being curious about wearing a Onesies and using a pacifier, to owning and wearing a few babyish dresses, worn only in our bedroom long after the kids were asleep. Then came a family trip to Europe where both Jean and I had business. All of us were touring a town in Bavaria when our then 15yo daughter, whispered she wanted the two of us to lag behind Jean and the boys. Her reason was she saw an adorable dress in a shop window that probably was an ordinary outfit there, but to us looked like a baby fairy princess would wear it. Our daughter used her allowance money to buy it. That evening in the hotel, with the boys playing a game in another room, our daughter gave Jean the dress, for when she played baby games. We never learned how the teen found out. To this day she will not tell me. She must have know awhile, and she never teased her mom about it. That must have been tempting, when mom and daughter were having one of those teen years disputes. My suggestion for DL and AB parents is to be discreet and use common sense, they know someday the kids will find out, so if they asked, do not lie. They will forgive a pacifier or DL activity, but they will never forget when you lie to them. Don

Welcome to the Daily Diapers Family, All of us were 22 for a whole year and everyone of us is nervous about many things.You are not alone. What can we tell you that will calm you, make you less nervous? My wife Angela Bauer is a woman who lost bladder control at puberty. Her family was supportive. She was 26 before she discovered so many very nice folks enjoy diapers. Until then she knew she needed diapers,so she accepted them. Once she started to have fun in diapers, she came to look forward to going to bed. Good for you, Nikki, if you have normal bladder control. If so, it is your choice when to wear big girl knickers and when a nappy. If you do sometimes wet, and manage by wearing a nappy, then let us help you relax and come to enjoy them. Look around, find interesting topics and read about us. Have fun. Daddy Don and Angela Bauer

Hi SoCalAB! I'm Don from the Sizzles in 1995 and onward, Angela and I have been thinking about you forever. This June I had to have robotic prostate surgery. My Jan 2007 PSA was 5.7 which is bad since for tears my PSA was 3.0-3.1 My uro confirmed the finding, did a surgical biopsy and I had aggressive cancer. I'm 75, so to me the logical approach was robotic surgery. Of course Angela has her own uro team. We spend a lot of time with uros. This greenlight approach for non-cancer enlarged prostate is to them the best thing since women started training as uros! What is vital is not delaying treatment for any prostate or any cancer situation. Don for Angela, too

Danielle, If you are referring to my message up thread, I was talking about my loving wife Angela Bauer aka Baby Angel. She has been participating here for a few months and wrote a column for DPF from 1991 to 2000. Look for one of her messages which has her portrait, and she is in the picture on my profile.

Hi Robe, Granny always said I was cute in the Playtex film. At one time I had some publicity stills from it, Agnes, Orson and me in one of them and the random baby girl, Agnes and me in another. Like so many of the phots from the era, they got lost. I have no memory of being changed by my mother, although Granny said she did her share when my nurse was off duty in the evenings, or by any of the nurses. At the radio studios it was always Granny who diaperd me. That made shooting the film exceptional. Because it was a union rules production, and our diapers were to be shown, a union costumer had to not only change us into diapers, she stood-by while a home economist from Playtex pull on the Baby Pants, then she resumed dressing us in the rest of our costumes, which appeared to be ordinary clothing. Rule was they had to be ranted from a costume company. However, there was no rule against Granny removing my wet diaper the time I just could not hold out until a scheduled break. Go figure.

Hi Lil, My wife Angela's baby sister Missy not only is a fellow incontinent AB, she is an award-wining Hollywood movie and TV costume designer. Back in 1990 when Missi told AB would make the diapers they had to wear at least fun. Right away Missi designed them several outfits, based on actual toddler and juvenile garments. Because Angela had a studio apartment and Missi did not have a washer at home, they made do with disposables. Angela and I fell in love in May 1991. I had a few new adult gauze prefolds from DPF. Angela and Missi adored them except the were not the right proportions. Missi has all the same industrial machines any garment factor owns. It only took her a couple of days to find Los Angeles fabric wholesale places with a gauze similar to Curity diaper weave. Locally and in small quantity diaper gauze is very difficult to sew. In factories the edges are fixed using a multi-needle over-lock machine. Setting all the controls to work on gauze is a frustrating art, and Missi almost gave up. Home sewing has a similar machine called a serger, usually with 4 needles. The one Missi selected at random was powerful enough to handle gauze and only cost about $500 slightly used. Missy simply took it to an expert serger mechanic along with ayard of gauze and he adjusted it perfectly. Missi only uses that particular serger to make her own prefold gauze diapers. Gerber uses a synthetic non-woven product call Kodafil as the soaker "sponge" Probably any similar non-woven will do, and most fabric stores sell that. It is used for many things. The sewing of gauze to hold the soaker in place needs a ziz-zag machine that can make a very narrow zig-zag. It takes a lot of practice to sew elastic in place. Usually that is done on a zig-zag machine set to "Elastic" with an elastic stretcher foot installed. Any sewing machine stor has those. Factory AIO usually use softer Lycra, which comes to them with the elastic and the cover separate. There are professional Lycra machines for spools of rubber and covering and a special foot to assemble everthing as the neddle does its thing. Missi owns one of those, which was very expensive. She uses it for many costumes. She does not make plastic panties because there are factories doing it at low cost. Fabric stores sell PUL, which is a supple waterproof material, fabric coated with plastic. There are several Yahoo groups devoted to home sewing diapers, AIO and baby things. Be careful there because they are all anti-AB. There are a few on-line stores selling everything you need to make diapers.

Anondl, there is no way to find out. Did you ever ask your mom? She might not be able to explain. My late wife Jean crusaded for gentle toilet learning, and did so for several years before we married and started a family. While our oldest son Kurt and daughter Cynthia were toilet ready, I was out of town on business so much I only learned the results later, and I made a big deal for every toileting success. Our son Ian is much younger, born in 1974, so I was home most nights to encourage his toilet training. Jean believed it best to use cloth diapers and trainers as children were toilet aware, because in cloth they could immediattely feel the wetness. Since the Dundee waterproof sheets she preferred had flannel on the outer layers and very soft rubber in the middle, on a bed under cotton sheets you did not feel them. Jean never removed the Dundee sheets, and none of our kids every worried they still had rubber sheets. Although all her kids did well staying dry, the way Jean gently explained being sick and just in case, they were not embarrassed knowing that Jean kept a central supply of cloth diapers and several of each size Gerber older kid vinyl panties. They never expressed any shame if they needed diapers for a few days in a row when sick, and none have ever indicated a liking of diapers. For Ian Jean kept Pampers on hand until he was too big, but until he reached puberty she had a stack of gauze diapers and Gerber pants in a discreet cabinet. Anondl, I wish I had a way of going back in time and introducing your mom to Jean. Maybe then you would have been gently diaper at night.

Early in 1998 Angela told her DPF readers about this period of my life I had forgotten from 1944 until I started telling Angela about it a few weeks previously. This is the first time I have ever writen about it. Here we go, to when I was put back in diapers: My life up to the summer of 1937 had been absolutely marvelous. My family loved me. Dad was a professor of chest surgery at Collumbia Med School in New York City. Mom published medical journals and text books. Granny (mom's mom) was a wealthy delightfully eccentric widow who owned a town house accross the street from our building where we had a masive loft, before they were fashionable. I don't remember before I was toilet trained. My first clear memory was when I was 30mo and going to toddler school every morning where over half the kids were still being changed right there in the big room. Granny would come over to see me in the afternoons. Usually my nanny walked me home from the school a couple of blocks away, sometimes Granny would meet me instead and take me on what she called "Adventures" that were always fun. The nannies changed every few months. The nanny, Granny, my folks and Uncle Hal read to me a lot, so shortly after I turned 4 in June 1936 I surprised Granny by reading a book back to her. By then I was in pre-school that was fun and lasted until 2PM. Although I was a year too young, I was skipped into Kindergarten when school restarted in September. A scout for a radio show saw me reading to a class. Next thing I was a child actor in Network radio shows. CBS and Mutual were next to each other, near Radio City, NBC was both the Red and Blue networks. Granny was the one who went with me ecause she enjoyed being with people like Orson Wells who hired me most weeks. In January 1937 I was transferred to Professional Children's School which had a flexible schedule so child performers could work. To me spending time on the 8TH floor of 30 Rock was like the biggest toy box in the world. In May 1937, just before I turned 5, Granny took me to meet an advertising agency producing a short movie. That was the first introduction of the revolutionary Platex Stretchy Baby Pants. I got the speaking part of the older brother. I was told the reason I was hired was that I never had complained at radio studios when Granny would put me in a diaper and old fashioned gum rubber pants so if I needed to pee, it would not disrupt the live broadcast. Kids who wanted to work as performers just had to get used to those "Just in Case" cloth diapers and rubber pants under shorts. As I remember the Playtex film several actresses playing moms are talking in a park each with a baby buggy and infant. There were also an older boy and a girl playing brother and sister of one baby. I was the big brother of the principal baby girl. After the women talked for a minute or so about the future and modern times, the actress (Agnes Moorhead) playing my mom says she will show them a new invention that will revolutionise family life. As we all watch, she fold down the canopy of her baby carriage so it is a changing table. She brings out my baby "sister" wrapped in a blanket, puts her on the changing table and unwrapps her, handing the blanket to all the women who are amazed it was dry. Up to then the camera was blacked by "Mom" to hide "Sister" even as it is obvious Mom is changing her diaper. Only after the change is finished does the camera move enough the audience sees Mom finishing the change by lovingly pulling up a Platex Stretchy Pant. There were cuts to show reaction by the other moms as well as indifference by the other kids. I got a close up smilling at Sister. Mom has started extolling the magic of the Playtex Baby Pants, saying they are more effective stopping leaks, so much better than letting babies sleep in an uncovered diaper. A mom says her own mother never even used rubber pants. The mom of the older kids mentions that the rubber pants she bought for special occasions had not worked the previous night, when we see the embarrassed look on the face of the girl, who was taller than me. Her brother tries to turn so nobody can see his face. Meanwhile Agnes has put sister back in the carriage so she can display the classic Playtex cardboard tube, saying they will be in all stores soon. Just as Agnes finishes her pitch, the girl says she is leaking and needs a toilet. The camera tilts down to show she is in a puddle, then tilts up to show her mom lifting the skirt revealing old rubber pants that had split, showing some diaper in the crotch. Next the boy says he also needs to go to a toilet. His frantic mom asks "What can I do? I can't be in two places at once!" Another mom leads the boy out of the shot, while her mom leads the girl off camera the other way. That leaves Agnes and the remaining mom to watch 2 carriages. "Remaining Mom" asks why "Little Donny" has not asked to go to a toilet. My line was "I don't have to" as Agnes shows another secret. She beckons me over to her side so she can un button my shorts, lowering them to reveal my diaper was thin and snug in side Platex Baby Pants. She replaces my short as we cuddle. The last shot is a medium close up of me with Agnes behind me as I say, "Mommy I love my new Playtex big boy pants!" Fade out, fade in to a full frame pring ad layout, with a "Voice of God" Narrator (Orson Wells) telling buyers for stores to be sure to talk to their Platex representative to reserve enough Baby Pants units and receive free ad matts or electrotypes. Trust me, when Orson Wells pronounces Playtex and electrotype, even I wanted them. His last VO says "Platex is just the latest advance of Internation Latex Worldwide as the ILW logo disolves in and the music swells until final fade out. Later Playtex edited a 2minute 30 second version that did not talk about electrotypes which was a pioneer movie theater commercial that was shown in a few MidWest locations. Since the film was made just for sales meetings, none of the kids I knew saw it, except for the boy and girl who also were at my school. Trust me, although almost all the other performer students were diapered while working, we did not talk about it and none of the three of us ever blew the secret. It was Susan Manchester who played Sister and was in real life a month older than me. She lived in the apartment building just west of our loft and we eventually dated when we were 14, and never talked about Platex. Another really good friend, Terry Edger, played the brother. The was a year older and getting tall. No child actor in NYC then could blush on cue like Terry, With his red hair he was in the original Broadway cast of "Life With Father." In 1940 Agnes Moorhead played the mom of young Charles Foster Kane in a movie written by, produced by, directed by and starring Orson Wells as "Citizen Kane." Despite the attempts of WR Hearst to burn all prints and negatives of Citizen Kane, the movie lives on. Alas, back in 1997 when I remembered this, I asked ILW if they had the Playtex sales film. Apparently all copies are long gone. Maybe that is just as well, since I am "Daddy Don" and not "Little Donny" now.

So Angela "encouraged" both of us to participate here. I rember you from DPF and I really like your stories. Don

Hi Anondl: Nappyloon is correct, even today the medical community is divided on what is in the best interest of the child. The commercial "Toilet Training" industry is divided. The early childhood research and education is divided. What we have her is failure to communicate. As a baby born in 1932, my parents and caregivers did not have the counsel of Dr. Spock and the specialty of pediatrics was in its own infancy. My father was a pioneer in chest surgery and was already head of that department at Collumbia Medical school in NYC. Shortly after WWII, and while finishing his book, Benjamin Spock, MD, joined the Collumbia faculty as an attending physician and associate professor of pediatrics under the department chair John Dorsey Craig, MD who was my pediatrician from birth until I "graduated" to an ordinary internest at age 12. My late first wife, Jean who some old time DPF members will remember, was a professor of early childhood development at Pacific Oaks School of Education in Pasadena, CA. Long before Jean lost bladded control with early-onset menopause, she advocated what today we think of as humane toilet training, first proposed by Spock in 1946. The idea is to only start toilet learning when to toddler's mind and body is ready. This was fought by old-fashioned thinking up to the present. Spock was aided by the proliferation of the diaper service laundry services during WWII. Once moms were not spending such a large protion of their day boiling old cloth diapers, they were not under pressure to speed toilet training beyond logical reason. With the decline in the cloth diaper services, the disposable diaper industry popularizes letting the child be ready for toiket learning. Spock was not opposed to transition from pinned diaper to cotton trainers. Clearly no sane parent will allow a 3yo to pin his own diapers. Such a child can learn to slide training briefs out of the way to toilet. Spock never made up his own mind on the question does wearing a diaper itself delay toilet learning. Even the go-slow toilet learning advocates conceed the comfort factor from wearing familiar diapers. Their point is the raise babies to become contented healthy adults, and if the comfort of a diaper reqires another 3 or 4 years of diapering, it is a wise investment for future mental stability. The medical profession largely conceeds the danger to patient health inherient to staying in a wet bed or chair. Before anyone starts toilet training or attempys physical therapy to restore damaged bladder control, the patient must be healthy. This is not disputed by sane people. Each person is unique. By remote control nobody can evaluate the situation. The general first approach my experience suggests is a multi-profession evaluation when a child shows no sign of being ready for day training at 44mo. That is borderline delayed toilet learning and could be symptom of serious problems with development, or it could be a UTI infection. The $20 term is "Secondary Nocturnal Enuresis" to describe a child not past puberty who suffers a loss of control while sleeping after a dry spell lasting either 12 or 16mo depending on the expert you ask. Like any incontinence there can be thousands of causes for control loss. Rarely is there a single cause. A whole lot of peer-reviewed case studies by the medical and psychological communities conclusively proves the percentage of people who deliberately wet to gain attention is statistically insignificant. Modern child psychologists concede no sane child wants the attention from wetting. However, the mind is complicated. A theory consistent with evidence is that in most cases, a child comes down with a simple illness that is hard to pinpoint unless you are looking for it, such as mild UTI. The kid dribbles urine while sleeping and is horrified. Often a damp sensation is comforting. The child does not understand, is embarrassed to immediately tell a parent, and by the time the wetting is larger volume, the child does not mind being damp. When interviewed by a counselor the "does not mind" reply is charted as "likes being wet" which is next charted as "deliberately wets." The child is not a trained professional so give the answers believed will please the questioner. Communication failure! My advice is everyone should sleep on a waterproof mattress and an additional silent, supple and soft waterproof removable cover should as long as necessary be part of every bed, certainly during college dorn years. Once we are used to sleeping in a protected bed, it feels natural. The first thing to do when a kid resumes wetting is to get a check-up. Double check the waterproof sheet for holes. Buy some disposable pull-ups in the correct size. None are ideal in bed, but an ineffective diaper with a stay-dry layer between skin and pad is far healthier than contact of the body with urine soaked bedding. The diaper zone is able to handle urine that will damage other skin. So what if the GoodNites, the new Attends Youth/Small Underwear or Depend Adjustable leaks some! That is why the waterproof sheet. When the child was sweet talked into trying big kid special undies, a prudent parent adds that if this does not keep the bed dry, Plan B needs to start. Here it is complicated because the recent findings of all the leading consultants to the disposable industry show beyond standard Size 6 the unit sales do not support convenient stocking in stores. From 55 to 120 pounds it takes at least 4 styles and sized to correctly fit everyone, yet the entire segment is small. The only available tape-on to fit is the Attend Youth/Small sold only in case lots of 96 on-line and hardly ever in stores. Unfortunately this is ahold-over design going back to the P&G era. Sales do not support for additional R&D. That tape-on will snug in enough to fit a child under 50 pounds and is listed for up to 12o pounds at which size most adult products will work. Disposable diapers are difficult to ship cheaply. Angela and I have hired a leading consultant to explore using the machines of a new South America disposable factory that is set up to better make short runs and can make diapers wider and longer than Size 6. P&G custom built their Size 7 machine but apparently that is its max. Also P&G has made it crystal clear they cannot devote funds to enter this "tweenie" market. Okay, we found a machine and a factory able to make what I think of as sizes 8 (55-65); 9 (62-80); 10 (65-88); 11 (80-110); 12 (100-130) It takes so many sizes to accomodate different body shapes. There is a belief that disposable with feel/stay dry is healthier than cloth. Part of that belief comes from studies done my the Diaper Service industry in 1975. My suggestion is an nconvenient diaper is better than no diaper. Small quantity is no problem when making cloth diapers or plastic panties. Many sensible parents faced with a kid who returns to wetting and is too large for Pampers Baby Dry s6 or Huggies OverNite s5 turn to products such as Babykins Velcro diapers and vinyl snap or pull-on pants. Children as young as 4 are routinely changing themselves using those BK diapers. The leading consultants we paid also predict the future is an improved adjustable fastener for premium baby disposables intended the child can use them without adult help. Just about every priduction executive wabts to minimize pull-up production that is high risk and low profit. Comments? My new e-mail is: dondavis@live.com Don

Thank you, Square Duck: For quite some time ACD has been one of our vendors. They are one of the few offering the new style of diaper gauze that combines the attibutes of classic Kendall Mills high threadcount diaper gauze and the classic Dundee Mills diaper Birdseye weave. As you know, years ago Gerber Soft Products bought first Dundee circa 1992 and then the diaper products and a few production facilities from Kendall Mills. As part of that deal, since Kendall is an ongoing business and owns the Curity brand names in other products, required that as soon as existing supplies of finished diaper produced prior the sale were shipped to stores, Gerber would indetify diaper with their name. Apparently about the same time Gerber had difficulty keeping the aging diaper gauze looms in working order. Spare parts were not available, and the worldwide changes in cotton supply no longer produced the very special thread needed for the old classic diaper gauze. This compromise, while not the same as "Curity" gauze, functions well. You are correct, ACD does sell adult gauze prefolds, but those are not the same as the DPF Baby Heaven D101. The BH 101 was made using a nearly identical gauze to the Curity. When Gerber bought both Dundee and Kendall's diaper gauze production, the FTC filed a writ mandating that Gerber offer both Birdseye and Cutity specification diaper gauze to any independent customer in the adult or baby business. When independent companies neither Dundee or Kendall would accept wholesale orders for their specialty fabrics. Among the people frustrated were our long-time friends and vendors who started Edley. They had tried to buy Birdseye from Dundee for years, without success. Days after the Federal writ was active, a Gerber rep made a cold call on Edley and offerd them open credit and shipped them bolts of Dundee Birdeye the same week. The BH 101 not only used a gauze identical to the more robust fabric Curity used in the prefold. It is similar in concept but not identical to the clasic weave Curity used in the flat 21"x40" diapers. The more robust gauze was used by Curity in their "Night Weight" flat 21"x40" The other key part of the BH 101 and the Curity/Gerber gauze and Birdseye prefold is the Kodafil non-woven synthetic "sponge" used in the soaker section. For reasons known only to ACD they follow the British practice of using terry weave as the "sponge" Angela and I do not endorse the use of terry in diapers. Unlike Kodafil, Birdseye and gauze, it is mot possible to wash terry effectively enough to render diapers sanitary. We declined to order the ACD prefold. As her supply of BH 101 dwindeled (the most recent shipment from DPF to her was in 2003) she was experimenting with an entirely differend folding method that does not require any adult prefold. Instead she starts with a single ACD 36" or 44" flat square 2-ply diaper, into which she folds 1, 2 or 3 off the shelf Gerber baby Birdseye prefolds, which do use Kodafil. It takes her a few seconds longer to prepare a fresh diaper for pinning, but it save time during the washing and drying phase. Tommy never revealed the vendor making the BH 101 for DPF, and we declined their generous offer to buy the DPF Store as an on-going business. Sources believe the BH 101 were produced off-shore. It was sad that VIP, like ProHealth and Edley decided to fold as the founders retired. VIP had also used up their stock of the unique vibyl fabric they used and were faced with a minimum oder calculated to be a 7 year supply of vinyl with a 3 year shelf life. That is the diaper business. Don

Hi Everyone, Thanks. Speilberg and I eventually work well together starting with "Close Encounters..." but he still kids about that one memo out of thousands. I made tons of money for Disney and Universal. Technical details have not been discussed. If you go to Michael Bryson's My Space page he uses a lot of production stills running from right to left as decoration. You will recognize Robert Grauel who plays Amber's Dad as the 'A' camera operator. Michael Bryson also plays the understanding husband of Older Amber and is shown operating a camera, perhaps when Grauel is in front of the camera. The cameras are hi def digital semi-pro models. One looks like a Cannon, but they are on comsumer tripods so it is just as well almost all the shots are static lock-offs. This was to show a story existed and could be realized without spending a fortune building sets. Considering that is a real house of normal design and the apartment is not outlandish, they put every cent invested on screen. Two weeks ago did anyone think we would even or ever have 21minutes of video about the sort of forced diaper use a whole lot of us lived through? With the writer's strike and Hollywood about of scripts, this could be rushed into production. Meanwhile chances are scouts for the million TV entertainment magazine shows is sure to take a look at the streaming feed. Ayla Judson is auditioning for a key role in a huge budget movie. Her Los Angeles agent is famous for giving young women a start. When she lands a deal, better believe some of this will be all over VH-1, MTV and E! Oh, yes, Angela made me promise to play nice or she will make me leave the sandbox. Don

My wife Angela Bauer was so excited last week when she saw Redemption. I agree it is a test of the way the character could be realize to give them life off the script page. After 50 years as a Hollywood studio executive, best known for writing a memo to Lou Wasserman saying we needed to fire Stephen Speilberg from Jaws because that inexperienced kid director was 2 days behind and $50k over budget, then shot myself in the foot by adding, "Besides, LW, nobody ever bought tickets for a film about a fish!" Here and on other sites people either love Michael Bryson' guts, or hate everything about this project. Maybe people have not sat in a screening room 12 hours a day having to check the Sundance reject in case there is something good. Trust me, this is story telling. This is also just a test, not the final production. Under the circumstances the technical work is far better than 85% of the independent short films I have seen. There was no budget for on set production sound. It is easy to buy or rent a top end consumer hi def camcorder with decent video, but it is the hard to find skill of the mic boom operator that make the recording useable, According to his website it was always to be music and narration. The reality is that in families sometimes one child bonds with the opposite sex parent. There is nothing weird, just one digs the other, leaving the spouse odd person out. That is where the story starts, the marriage was not solid long before the accident. The wife might have been needy and the husband so caught up in his career he did not read the clues his wife was nuts. Then comes the accident. It was not entirely the young girl's fault. It was just an accident. Perhaps the first year without the father Mom and Girl function and get along on some level. If the Girl did not have a grief counselor, the Survivor's Guilt PTSD would not be discovered so intende therapy could start. A very common side effect of PTSD is loss of some bladder control especially in deep sleep, A rational Mom who had also received her own grief counseling and who listened to the experts would have anticipated some wet neds and would have protected the mattress. She should have spent $15 and bought a bag of GoogNites to be ready. If her daughter did not dribble, then the pull-up could be donated. Something caused Girl to dribble or wet. She was not doing it deliberately for attention and it is hardy likely Girl was a kid who loves diapers. Punishment never solves wetting. To regain control the parents and medical team need to coax the kid into preferring the embarrasment of diapers, even discreet ones, to the wet bed. So, the Mom forces the Girl into infantilism. Remember the Girl actually had enuresis and likely limited day control all made worse by the Mom's over reaction. Then the Mom left her revolver in her nighy stand drawer! The NRA would object. By the time the mom's body is discovered, according to Michael Bryson, it was dead 2 days. The girl was cowering in a corner. The revolver had Mom's finger prints and was close to the body. The shot was at such close range the wound had stippling from the shot, consistent with it being self-inflicted. Even if the girl was tested for gun shot residue, the test is usless unless done within an hour of the shooting. Besides, in the USA a minor under 14, and Girl had just turned 12, cannot be charged and tried for any form of homocide. A careless med examiner/coroner would rule this suicide to end the investigation. This means that if a parent forces a kid into diapers with beatings, she should not leave her loaded revolver where the victim can find it and use it. Don