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This should be routine for you all now, but I'm in a situation where ordering diapers online (the good kind, that is) may lead me to some embarrassing encounters (for both parties) that I would prefer to avoid. Whenever I really want some, I get depends (ugh!) with some boosters. I've heard people talk about medical supply stores before, and I've tried the almighty Google search, and yellow pages searches, but I don't really know how these stores are listed. Could anyone lend some advice on this? I'm ready for the possibility that there may simply be none in my area, but I'd like to at least try and look before giving up and settling for a lesser product I've tried to Google "medical supply" for my location, and did a similar search via yellow pages. Am I just looking in the wrong places? I appreciate any tips on this!

So I guess I'm pretty lucky.. After I told her about it, she was very tolerant of the idea.. Soon after she actually came to me and told me she wanted to see me in a diaper, she said she though the idea was adorable. My diaper fetish comes naturally from my peeing fetish, which I told her about first, and a few days after she admitted she wanted to see me in a diaper she was already wanting to wet her pants with me. I told her before all this that this wasn't the only way for me to be happy, and that I didn't need it, and that I only was telling her out of my desire to be open. She came to me anyways, and now we are enjoying the fetish together quite a lot I ordered some abena x-plus but they haven't arrived yet (Damn memorial day!) I wasn't expecting this at all, she's quite turned on by the prospects.. I hardly can bring up the ideas before she does.

I'm more interested in independence, and someone who can be the source of their own happiness. I would rather have someone who accepts who I am, but make clear that they won't indulge it, than someone who would indulge it just to make me happy. There are other things which make me far happier than this little quirk of mine, and those are more important to me.

As an update, I ended up telling her everything. I was sure to include that it wasn't the only way to make me happy, and that whether she indulged it was entirely up to her. I was prepared to just leave it behind me. Whether or not I would be successful with that I'm not sure, but the thoughts kept crossing my mind, and I felt like I was keeping back something fundamental about myself and so I told her. She took it quite well, even mentioned she thought that if I wore a diaper around her that she'd think it was cute

So I've met this girl, and she's quite amazing. We've been going out for a little less than a month now, so I suppose there is still room to detect anything I may not like. Well anyways I'm sure you can imagine what's coming up next, I haven't told her about my fetish yet, and I've been considering just hanging it up. It's not like I don't function sexually without it. Has anybody here met someone like this and made that decision? I can imagine what came of it since you're still posting here, but I still want to know.

::shrug:: I just don't stress about it. I'm socially normal to all the girls I've ever met or dated. I've told every girl I've ever gone out with about my fetish, not one of them left me for that reason, some were even willing to indulge in it. Trick really is not so much finding someone just like you, but just finding someone you like and don't lie about yourself or hide anything. Never pressure anybody to do something they don't want to. I never have, and I've had a modicum of luck finding people willing to enjoy this kind of thing with me. It's when you are desperate for somebody who shares your exact feelings for this stuff that the worst mistakes are made. Once you've backed somebody into a corner and make them feel uncomfortable around you, it's pretty much ruined. So for advice, just chill out and be yourself.

Talk about some of your fantasies concerning the DL lifestyle! I'll start with one of my own. This extends to my wetting fetish too, but more and more my wetting fetish becomes supplanted by DL. I've always wanted to be able to have a significant other who would wear a diaper, and we could embrace each other while we both wet our diapers.

For me, I enjoy wearing them.. I love the feeling for using them (#1 only, though). Especially for the very thick ones, such as Abena X-plus, where I can use it 3 or 4 times and not worry about leaking (I started on depends, and did so for a very long time. So it's almost second nature for me to check for leaks but now I finally trust the diaper that I wear, which leads into the next point) Diapers at first were just an extension of my wetting fetish (I still partake in that one, as well) but after a while it became a security thing as well. Although when I used depends I couldn't rely on them enough and I was more worried about leaks then.. but since I started ordering Abena X-plus it really has become a security and comforting thing to have one on. I don't typically wear in public, just because I'm a poor college student and seldom indulge myself enough just at my apartment.. But I do enjoy wearing in public as well, it's exciting for me to have that concealed. All of my friends know about my fetish too, and I've told them every detail about it.. And of course it was awkward but I asked if they minded at all if I did those kind of things around them (concealed of course, I wouldn't just go wearing only a diaper around our apartment just as much as I wouldn't go in public masturbating). Luckily I've surrounded myself with very open minded people my entire life, and they don't care at all. Being yourself in this respect with people and being accepted is a wonderful feeling. I'm not sure if anybody can relate for this, but probably the biggest turn on for me if I were to have a female partner accepting of this trait of mine would be the immense amount of mutual trust I would have with this person. Sure I have personal things to talk about.. but this one thing about myself is always the last thing I divulge.. And I have on numerous occasions with past girlfriends. They've all been accepting of it, we all parted ways for other reasons.. But the level of understanding they showed made me trust them far more than I could trust anybody were I not to tell them.. because they know about one of my most guarded secrets, and when I let that secret out is when I'm at my most vulnerable.. So back to the security again. I've never asked a girl to partake in it with me, nor will I ever. I put it out there that I would enjoy it, but it's not necessary. I don't think it would be right to ask that kind of thing and put somebody under that kind of pressure when it's not necessary. (For me my fetish is very strong, but I've been in relationships before where I would tell her about it and she would accept it and assure me her feelings haven't changed but she didn't feel comfortable doing it, but I was quite happy for how long it did last.. I know I don't need somebody to indulge me with diapers for me to be happy) Kinda ran some tangents there so here's a summary. I like peeing myself/seeing girls pee themselves... recently this has shifted to doing so with diapers.. which caused me to develop a taste for all the things associated with diapers (the feel of them, how exciting it is to conceal them, wetting them, and the level of security/comfort I feel when wearing one) And since a common theme for this upstart board has been how we differentiate from AB. I'll say that while the feeling of security diapers promote for many of us can be considered emotionally regressive (feeling a dependence on something.) I personally don't believe it is, because a feeling of security can be brought about by many behaviors which are NOT considered regressive in any way (for example, a lot of people will use blankets in bed even though it's warm, and will blatantly say it makes them feel secure) I love wearing diapers, I love just about everything associated with them now, without extending into infantalism.

I registered a little while ago, and I visit from time to time, but never participated in the forums because I didn't feel I fit in on the majority of the threads. This is a great addition to the website, thank you!