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I posted earlier concerning a related topic:

1. I wet the bed up until 3-4 and a few times after that, nothing major.

I either wear just a diaper or sleep naked.

Thanks for the advice.

Hi,

@Baby Brian: Unfortunately, it still hurts to go to the bathroom. Last night, I think I had to go to the bathroom four times. However, I woke up all four times! I am no longer wearing diapers at night because I have noticed that I wake up wet every time I wear diapers. I have only had a few accidents since the surgery. I am pretty thankful for that.. I *think* I am going to the bathroom frequently during the day. But, I need to put it on paper so I can view trends. Another thing I've noticed is that I get that "pressure" feeling at night when I lie down at night. I think I may suggest going to PT to my urologist when I see him in a few months if I see no improvement. I tried to avoid driving to Austin for the PT I need last time...but if it helps..then who am I to complain? It must be so frustrating for all those specialists to have no idea what is going on with your case. How have you remained strong? I find it very hard to talk about with my partner and especially my family. In the case of my family they only know some basic information i.e. that I had an obstruction and had to have surgery. And, financially...it is so expensive to see these specialists and have tests. I feel very worn dealing with this as well as balancing work, personal life, and school.

It's been a while. I think I am more or less healed from the surgery now. I am taking 8mg Toviaz every other day, and am thankful to be down to one medication. Since the surgery, I have not really noticed any change in my bladder habits . My urine flow has really improved. But, I am still getting up and going to the bathroom and only urinating 2-6oz. I don't feel nearly as urgent anymore, but my urologist has told me not to hold my bladder for a long time. Incidentally, I talked to my mom, and she says that I've always held my bladder for a long time. As a child, I never wanted to finish what I was doing. At night, I have not had any major accidents since the surgery. I consider this a huge improvement. However, I am still getting up anywhere from 2-4 times a night. And, I am not drinking any substantial amounts of water past 8pm (I usually go to bed 11:30-12:00). What worries me, is that over the past week it has started to hurt to urinate again. It almost feels like when the catheter came out. I get this kind of burning sensation and also it feels like the inside of my urethra is inflamed or something because I feel a sort of pressure. If it continues or worsens, I'm going to have to call my urologist and schedule an appointment. I also am occasionally feeling the same pressure/mild pain in my lower abdomen. Anyone have any thoughts or insight into my situation?

Thanks a bunch Rope_W. I don't think that they are kicking the idea around anymore. I think I just misunderstood the specialist. Time for an overdue update! Today I had the TUIP done. And, it went well. I have a foley in right now, and will continue to wear it until next Thursday. The foley itself is pretty big, but I am still leaking a bit. So, I think I'm going to have to grab some pull-ups to absorb the excess. It kinda seems like if this does not work out for me, my urologist has no idea what to do next and will likely refer me out. So, I am hoping that the surgery turns out. During the last month I did a lot of physical therapy. The therapist told me that he thinks that I have compressed nerve bundles in my lower back and neck which may be contributing to my issues. He had me doing a lot of nerve stretches which helped my lower back. However, I don't know if he was hurting me or helping me because I could never get my ulnar nerve to stop hurting for three weeks. I started a new round of antibiotics at the same time as PT, so I don't know if the decrease in frequency/pain was due to the antibiotics or the PT. But, since I have stopped the PT my arms and back pain have since gone away. I think I should just stay away from them unless I get referred to a neurologist. My urologist said that if the physical therapist was right it would have showed up on my CT or the MRI. So...there's my story.

I'm self conscious and ashamed about my diaper use. I have gotten to the point where I feel comfortable wearing diapers around my wife or while out and about. However, I fantasize about having sex involving diapers, but am mostly too ashamed to ask her. It's funny because I know that she would indulge me. I just feel weird about it. And, when the shoe is on the other foot...I have no issues indulging my SO with her fetishes... I guess I also feel like I am being selfish. The other thing is. Both my SO and myself go to fetish parties in town every month. Everyone knows that I am a pain slut, and have a thing for blood/knife play, spankings, floggings, violet wand play, and fire play. However, no one knows that I am also a DL. I just feel that diapers are pretty taboo, and well, I care too much about what other people think. I have not seen any DLs in my area at all. I guess if I did, it would make things much easier for me.

I think darkravendl said it pretty good. For me, the cysto was far more uncomfortable physically because I have an obstructed urethra. So, the scope was a tight fit. However, the nurse or the doctor should numb up your urethra prior to inserting the scope. The urodynamic study was uncomfortable because its just awkward. During my study they had me stand in front of the imaging machine while they filled me up with saline. However, it was pretty cool because I could see the real time x-ray of my bladder and how it was reacting to being filled. I learned I could hold more urine that I thought I could...but the pain I was feeling was increased pressures due to an obstruction in my urethra. You should do fine. They are a little embarrassing, but survivable.

I'm not really interested in making myself incontinent..but am curious about catheter play because I am having surgery done soon, and I'll have to be cathetered up to a week. As far as I can see...it looks like really the only things that are needed for this kind of play is a catheter and some sort of lube. Of course sterilization on the outside of the penis is a good thing. But, a full tray is unnecessary for each time....right? Both times I had a cystoscopy done the nurse used a syringe to inject the surgilube into my urethra. Think I'm going to do that if I ever get some catheters.

@adhb: Yeah. But, from the sounds of it, my doctor believes that I will have retrograde ejaculation as a result of the surgery. I've actually had it from one of the medications I had before. I talked to my SO, and she's comfortable with either. If we wanted to have kids (we are not planning to have kids), it's still not out of the question. I guess we'll see what happens during my appointment in April.

And, the update is...I don't have an update. I keep calling in and am told that they will call me back. It seems like both doctors are never in the office at the same time. This shit is so old. Edit: Dr 1's nurses finally got back to me. Dr 1 wants to do a trans-urethral incision of the prostate or TUIP. Talked to the SO, and she has no issues with it. I read an article stating that the TURP is more effective than the TUIP, and that it (TUIP) was done more for people who have more severe health issues. I'm going to definately talk to Dr 1 and 2 regarding TUIP and TURP. Anyone have any special knowledge they'd like to share?

I'm a switch. My partner likes shibari/bondage, needle play, and sensation play. I'm into...lots of things, to include diapers, bathroom control (being told when I can go, and how I can go), fire play, knife play, violet wand play, spankings, floggings, nipple torture (I can almost cum from this one alone), biting, and well pain in all its forms if being dominated right, figging, pegging, enemas, forceful face fucks, etc...

Security or Comfort Diapers keep my furniture and me dry. Also, when I'm having a flare and I have to make multiple trips to the bathroom they are pretty convenient and keep the pressure/pain down.